You were having a good time — was Criston?
Sadly, yeah. I have friends who complain at the moments at which they have the thing they most want. They complain when they get there, but secretly, it’s the thing they know they’re really happy to do. The one thing we know Criston is good at is being a soldier. He doesn’t understand politics. I don’t even know if he’s a good general. But he started as a foot soldier, and that is what he’s good at. Something about him felt relieved. This is definitely his most enjoyable season, without a doubt.
When he made up his mind that there was no way out for him, that this was a suicide march, was that liberating for him?
Massively. It was liberating for me as an actor to feel that, as well. When one knows the end is nigh, it’s very hard not to live in the present because you don’t have a choice. You can only live now. If I were to look at the moments of Criston Cole’s life where he’s been happy, if there have been any, I would say that on the battlefield in this episode is one of them. Cole lives at his happiest close to death.
Suicidal despair seemed to set in for him after his first encounter with dragonfire on the battlefield last season.
Sara Hess wrote it so beautifully in Episode 8 of Season 2: “The dragons dance, and men are like dust under their feet. And all our fine thoughts, all our endeavors are as nothing. We march now toward our annihilation.”
There was a scene that never made it into the cut, where Criston goes to Alicent’s quarters and collapses crying in her arms, and she holds him like a child. The nature of the beast is that sometimes scenes just don’t make it. But for me as an actor, I remember doing that scene with Olivia. It was the final scene of the whole of Season 2, and we wrapped as soon as the scene wrapped. I felt that was the moment: the admission of all the wrongdoing, all of the guilt, all of the realization that ultimately his annihilation is his own doing. He’s caused and created so much of the mayhem around him.